Saint Augustine said, “You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they find rest in you.” I can’t believe how true this is. My thoughts often drift towards marriage but these daydreams never leave me feeling full. I don’t walk away from a romance novel or a chick flick feeling complete. Instead, I often feel discontent or jealous. But when I walk away from a time of prayer or an hour in God’s Word, I feel so satisfied, so peaceful, so close to Him.
Jonah 2:8 says, “Those who pay regard to vain idols forsake their hope of steadfast love.” I feel like this verse speaks right to my heart. I hope for an enduring love and I’m seeking it in all the wrong places. I build an idol out of marriage. But the only one who can fulfill my desire for steadfast love is God. My husband will be a fallible human being. He will let me down. He will make me angry, frustrated, or sad. By pursuing what I think will satisfy my desire for love, I’m actually pushing aside the only One who can fill that void. A man will be sure to fail me but God will always love me perfectly.
Right now, my aim is to fall in love with Christ. I used to chase the idea of marriage but now I’ve decided to run hard after Christ. That doesn’t change the fact that I hope to one day get married. It’s not that this is a bad desire. But when it becomes more important to me than God, that’s when it becomes an idol.